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Post by pierre on Mar 15, 2006 21:02:32 GMT -4
 I apologize everyone. I am lame and extremely inactive. My life is just..surprisingly..rough..right now. I don't want to explain too much of it, but I will tell you that a decent chunk of my reasoning deals with homework, stress, and slight depression. There is just too much in real life to deal with, and I'm overwhelmed by seemingly everything. I'm not sure how to get all of this out, in any way, so I have decided to find a really active rpg, make a charrie that resembles myself as a horse, and produce every emotion into that horse. I will be rping here(i know its my turn to post as Kye and Pierre), but I would love to see how this new charrie I make turns out. I will let you know what site it is, what charrie, and all that. It'd be interesting for everyone to follow my charrie along, but if you don't feel like reading my lame-azz novels to understand what i'm going through, thats fine. I just don't know how else to show you guys all of this. It's crazy chaos. I'll try to keep up with my posts here, but with Ebra half gone, its hard to carry out the whole shabang. NO, I am not quitting. And I probably never will. I am tied to this site, and everyone knows it. I love you guys.-Jocko |
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Post by Lazy Ebby on Mar 15, 2006 23:01:46 GMT -4
Hey. My parents said I was leaving. I never am, though. ^^ Didn't you hear the plan? I have ALL the passwords, even to the master accounts. I sneak on all the time now... Until I get caught (which will be never! ^^) So get your hiney to that thread and reply, because little sweet Fajera will be there to treat you nicely.  Anyways, it is supposed to be fall by now, so she will foal soon... Spring.  Come on! As for depression, I really don't know what to say. You really need to not think so hardly on some things. It helped me alot. I am much more laid back now... Depression stinks, though. So I am sorry. -Pets- |
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Post by Classic Touch on Mar 16, 2006 7:40:40 GMT -4
I was depressed at one point, but i found more time at the barn, riding and doing more things i liked. Then i didnt really have enough time to think about it all between school and horses. Sometimes i would get stressed between it all, but after i went there everyday and showed every week i just kinda forgot about it all.
-glomps jocky- Where here for you k girlie?
-whispers- Just remember, timeh loves jocky more then tay does -squeeks and runs out-
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Post by lazier than ebbyjock on Mar 16, 2006 17:33:37 GMT -4
It's not just the depression. It's life and chaos. -shrugs- and the computer just doesn't cut it for me anymore. I am, however, spending more time with my horse. -sighs dreamily- he never complains on the days when i cry on his shoulder or seek solace within the muscles of his sleek neck. god i'm pitiful.
I still haven't figured out which rpg I am carrying this plan out on, but I am thinking about rejoining WoC as a draft, and just going from there. I don't know what's going on with me right now, and I don't really want you guys to worry. I'm not sure. I've talked to Carousel(from woc and hl) about it, but he doesn't know what to do. So yeah.
I ain't leaving, so no worries. I hate having to post for both Kye and Pierre right after the other, but i'll git r done. dont you worry bout that. -sigh- it's just difficult. TAY: remember when I told you I was like..in love with Ryan? -groans- my best friend is going out with him. It's torture, every d**n minute of it. So I watch her flirt and coo with him, and then i go home and get on the computer or spend time with my horse. I'm just not very social I guess.
There is, however, a plus side to this; my poetry has taken a miraculous rise. I write slices of poems after my every diary writing(which I intend to post sometime if I create a blog) and I am surprised to see my efforts from rping have really increased. -groans- my mom linked to one of my posts..and read it. I don't remember which one it was, but it was one of my longest. o.o. She was talking to me about it, and kept telling me how 'deep' it was. -blush- she wants me to start writing now. blegh. I might start a novel (timeh has read a work in the making on WA) but I'm not sure.
Jocko
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Post by Laziest Ebra on Mar 16, 2006 20:55:21 GMT -4
Aww, Jockish! I'm so sorry.  Trust me, things always get better. Just try and focus on the things that REALLY make you happy. And about this guy, if things didn't work out, he is obviously not for you. You just need to keep trying, and remember that there is someone out there; most likely better! |
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Post by Beltran on Mar 17, 2006 9:30:10 GMT -4
Poor Jocko...  Although I can't say I don't know what you're going through...because I've felt that way as well. When I get really depressed, I take it all out on paper. Whether that be as writing, poetry or drawing - it helps. Spending quiet time with pets is also a healer over time, they understand better than most people, they have more empathy than practically everyone else around you. And if you want to share your feelings daily, post on here! I'm sure all of us would feel better knowing that you feel better as well. Even though I haven't been what you'd call "active" -blush- I do come on here almost daily to check on the posts and whatnot. Besides, we're the lone survivors of Equusoul, I'd call us a family if nothing else. -hugs timeh, ebby, deux, pierre, weiry- |
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Post by pierre on Mar 17, 2006 15:13:33 GMT -4
beltran(aka my dreamishpookins), i love you guys. my family. mwhaha. the mob of ES. fear us. -draws sword- I could never ever ever ever ever quit, so no worries. My posts are at a halt, I realize this. Kye's is..-looks- stillllll not done. merf. It's the same way for me on entity. I started an awesome post for Zyanara, but its still not done. Stablekins is probably like 'wtf'. but oh well. I'll finish them soon. Probably tonight or tomorrow, since we don't have school.
Everyone; this was the first rpg i ever joined, and i could never rip myself away from it. i just wanted you to know that..again. If you've seen some of my posts from the first Ectasy(my first charrie here), then you can see how much i've advanced over time spent here. -sigh- Now my stupid little posts have turned into novels at times. -blinks- and my mom is so sure that writing was made for me. she keeps wanting to read more of our posts..and it scares me. haha. tay; everytime she reads one of your charries posts, she's like wow. -groans- and when i forget to clear the internets history, she reads all of em. she's like "if you guys all got together, you could make the most interesting novel ever". ugh. anyways. Yeah..
I lurve you all..still..now..and.........................forever. just please give me time.
Surviving,
-Jock
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Post by Classic Touch on Mar 17, 2006 15:57:45 GMT -4
intresting novel? Just make sure ive got no part of that now. No no no. pift, I cant write for my life.
[glomps jockith][spits out][tackles][squeezes]
Caus we all know im the worst rper here [sheepish grin] And proud of it! [makes picket signs]
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Post by Lazzzzzy Ebby on Mar 17, 2006 20:09:38 GMT -4
Oh, please Timeh.
And please come back soon Jockish! -Pets-
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Post by Deux Épées on Mar 20, 2006 10:58:30 GMT -4
-putts in on her motorcycle, cuzz decided to be part of a gang (from the barn I ride at, heehee, we were hyper) and then flips off it and tackles Jocko- B UAHAHAHAHA! -captures Jocko- nobody shall take thee, you are mine. -snugs- Depression is like -scratches head- a monster. thats right, a monster. -hands the magic pepper of she and Piro's- this will help defeat it. But yeah, I'd like to read what you rp, I've always wanted to do something like that, kind of pour everything into a character, to let it all explode. I wish I'd done that when I first discovered depression, when my grand dad died, but no, I was dumb and kept it, so defidently a good idea. -noddleses and huggles Jocko more-
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Post by pierre on Mar 20, 2006 18:52:21 GMT -4
xheartless.tk you guys should order there. it's a great graphics site that just opened today (a friend of mine founded it). order from k e a i r a.
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I apologize everyone. I am lame and extremely inactive. My life is just..surprisingly..rough..right now. I don't want to explain too much of it, but I will tell you that a decent chunk of my reasoning deals with homework, stress, and slight depression. There is just too much in real life to deal with, and I'm overwhelmed by seemingly everything. I'm not sure how to get all of this out, in any way, so I have decided to find a really active rpg, make a charrie that resembles myself as a horse, and produce every emotion into that horse. I will be rping here(i know its my turn to post as Kye and Pierre), but I would love to see how this new charrie I make turns out. I will let you know what site it is, what charrie, and all that. It'd be interesting for everyone to follow my charrie along, but if you don't feel like reading my lame-azz novels to understand what i'm going through, thats fine. I just don't know how else to show you guys all of this. It's crazy chaos. I'll try to keep up with my posts here, but with Ebra half gone, its hard to carry out the whole shabang. NO, I am not quitting. And I probably never will. I am tied to this site, and everyone knows it. I love you guys.
Anyways, it is supposed to be fall by now, so she will foal soon... Spring. 
Come on!
Although I can't say I don't know what you're going through...because I've felt that way as well. When I get really depressed, I take it all out on paper. Whether that be as writing, poetry or drawing - it helps. Spending quiet time with pets is also a healer over time, they understand better than most people, they have more empathy than practically everyone else around you. And if you want to share your feelings daily, post on here! I'm sure all of us would feel better knowing that you feel better as well. Even though I haven't been what you'd call "active" -blush- I do come on here almost daily to check on the posts and whatnot. 
